Part 1: Lucy Wayne
Today we are exploring our church’s theme for
December, expectation. We are also considering the phenomenon of the coming of
the sun.
Two days from now is the northern hemisphere’s
winter solstice, the time that the sun is absent from the sky for the longest
amount of time. This is immediately followed by an increase in light as Earth
tilts closer to our big star.
As the longest night of the year approaches, I
invite you join me in an inquiry into darkness.
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What comes to mind when you hear the word? Art,
psychology - even social agreements - form from distinct understandings of what
darkness brings.
For many, it brings welcome rest and respite -
even relief from physical ailments like a migraine.
Darkness can be a place of things happening
unseen, of gestation and the unconscious. It is in the dark oasis of the cocoon
that a caterpillar works through its chrysalis stage before becoming a
butterfly.
Some equate the word with an idea of badness. In
Joseph Conrad’s novel Heart of Darkness the eponymous land was not only
a site of mystery but a place of dread.
Many children fear the dark and what it might
contain - many adults too.
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For just a couple of minutes right now, let us
consider the darkness of pain. People who have experienced depression often
describe it as a dark time. Suffering becomes so vast it eclipses even the
expectation of brightness. In this kind of darkness, it feels like it is
“always 3 o’clock in the morning” inside of us, to quote F. Scott Fitzgerald.
The contemplative stream of Catholicism has a
name for this period. They call it: the Dark Night of the Soul, a phrase that
was coined by Saint John of the Cross in the 16th century.
To simplify greatly, the dark night of the soul
is when a faithful believer experiences no connection with their God. It is
bewildering and scary.
One of the reasons it’s so scary is the fact
there’s no “calendar” for when - or if - the dawn will come. This phase lasted
astonishing lengths for people considered saints. Saint Paul of the Cross lived
through a 45-year dark night of the soul. Mother Theresa beat him with 49 years
in the night.
Whether an official dark night of the soul or an
emotionally or physically crushing time, sometimes we cannot track where we -
and the metaphorical sun - are in the rhythmic cycle.
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This brings us to a key question - Are there any
advantages to not expecting an increase of light?
If we are not distracted from the present by a
hope our hard situation will change, we can fully take stock of reality. This
can give us the motivation we would not otherwise have to respond
appropriately.
For example, recognizing incompatibility in a
failing relationship and letting go of a conviction it can improve can give us
the strength to move on.
Similarly, acknowledging a sick loved one is not
going to get better - the sun of healing is not coming - can help us do the
hard work of being present with someone who is dying.
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To further explore this concept, what are disadvantages
to expecting the coming of the sun?
In concentration camps during the Holocaust, it
was well-known among veteran prisoners that many people died soon after January
1 of each year. This was not due to the weather, but psychology that was tied
to the seasons.
Some prisoners’ life strategy was to focus on
hoping for change for the better. We might call these people optimistic
solstice-waiters. They thought, “By the new year, we will be free.” At first,
this conviction was a source of strength and in the autumn they were noticeably
more cheerful than their peers as they counted down the months to liberation.
However, when January 1 came and went and they remained imprisoned, these
optimistic people lost their will to live, which in the camps meant death.
Although it’s an understandable impulse, pinning
our resilience on an expectation that “things will be better” can be dangerous
- especially when connected to a specific time frame.
Yet there is a strengthening way to await
a solstice. We can trust that the darkness itself is a teacher, that there is
growth, meaning, purpose in the suffering of a difficult time. Even if we don’t
know what the meaning is, we can trust that the lengthened nights of the soul
are part of a natural cycle. This is an expectation that can sustain us.
So when we are in darkness and hear the
community’s call reminding us the sun is coming, instead of anticipating the
specific outcome that our lives will fill with light, we can be warmed by the
sun’s reminder that the darkness is part of the circle of ebb and flow, the
turning of our Earth.
Part 2: Cypress
Walker
One morning, a little engine was working in its railroad
station. Then a long train asked a large engine to take it over the hill.
"I can't; you are too heavy for me", said the large engine. Then the
train asked another engine, and another, only to hear excuses and refusals. In
desperation, the train asked the little engine to pull it up the hill. "I think I can", puffed
the little engine, and put itself in front of the great heavy train. Believing
that it could succeed and determined to do so, the little engine kept puffing
faster and faster, "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can."
As it neared the top of the hill, the little engine went more
slowly. However, it still kept saying, "I—think—I—can, I—think—I—can."
It reached the top by drawing on this expectation that it could. As the little
engine went down the hill, it said "I thought I could, I thought I could.”
How many of you are familiar with this story?
If you know the name of the story, please call it out for us to
hear. I thought you could, I thought you could tell me
the name of the story!
In this story, the little engine is faced with a seemingly
insurmountable task. With the ambitious yet realistic expectation that it could
do what others deemed impossible, it was able to draw upon the strength and
determination to pull the large train up the slope. I believe that we are not so
different than this little engine, because we too need to create and act on
expectations that enable us to do what at times seems beyond our power.
Optimistic yet rational expectations of ourselves and each other
can compel us to achieve well beyond our initial beliefs of what can be done. A
fit individual who embarks on marathon training with the expectation of
completing the race may still be awed by what she went through to cross the
line on race day. By contrast, irrational expectations may not only be
unproductive but even downright harmful. If an individual with a cardiovascular
condition resolves to run a marathon, the same expectation is more likely to diminish
health rather than boost a sense of accomplishment.
We’re
talking about light and darkness this morning. How do expectations of
light and darkness affect our expectations of ourselves and each other.
Though climate change and El Niño weather conditions may affect
what we expect of this winter, millennia of seasons suggest that for the most
part we can expect a fairly routine shift from winter to spring. Indeed, this
pattern is so well established through our observations and measurements that
we can look at the day on the calendar and form reasonably accurate predictions
about what the weather will be. For those who are curious, weather.com
forecasts that on the 2015 Winter Solstice we will have a high temperature of
60 degrees Fahrenheit.
Nature and life hold many mysteries, but when the longest night
of the year will be is not generally considered one of them. My question is, if
we know when we can confidently expect the sun’s resurgence, why do we have so
many rituals to call forth the light? If these rituals are not physically
necessary to restore the sun, why do we summon it in the heart of darkness?
I think that it’s because we need to feel that we play a part in
the annual resuscitation of brightness. By acting on our hopeful
expectations for the earth’s renewed verdant vitality, we may also create
and express expectation for ourselves and each other to be resilient. I think I can survive the darkness. I think you can work
through the hard times. I think that we can help it to be better. I
think I can, I think you can, I think that we can be better.
Optimism that the sun will come may be insufficient. It may even
be inappropriate in times where we need the darkness to incubate or instruct us.
I personally am craving, and needing, that hibernation and reflection. When it
is time to leave the darkness – and I believe that that time always does come –
the realistically optimistic expectation of ourselves that we can and should
bring more light into the world can increase how brilliantly it shines. Perhaps
we don’t bring forth nor brighten the morning star, but we can enable the sun
to rise on our own lives. Through song, prayer, connection, action, and the
many ways in which people around the world seek to prepare for the sun in the
times of greatest darkness, we enact a belief in our human abilities to learn
from our own darknesses in readiness to shine greater light in our lives and
societies.
Given what I understand of science, it is not realistic to
expect that we have much sway in how the solar calendar plays out. Given what I
understand of human nature, we can stretch our expectations within reasonable
limits to keep growing. Without running from darkness, we can remember and
rejoice that there will be light again. Without ignoring reality, we can expect
of ourselves to learn from adversity and emerge stronger. Channeling the little
engine and expecting light via darkness, I am fueled by this mantra: I think I
can, I see we have, I believe we will.
Part 3: Wik Wikstrom
There is
Christmas, of course, and I’ve long argued that there are two distinct
religious holidays that bear the same name – I call them “homophonic holy
days.” There is the Christian holy day
of Christmas, and a more recent, secular holiday that’s also called Christmas. There’s Hanukkah, a minor holiday in the
Jewish calendar that’s been elevated in stature because of the way Christmas
gets all the hype.
But there’s a lot more than these two at this
time of year! There is Diwali – significant to Hindus, Sikhs, Buddhists, and Jains – symbolizing the
victory of good over evil; and Loi Krathong in Thailand, when people put
lighted candles, incense, and coins into a small lotus-shaped boat made out of
banana leaves, place it in a river, and allow the current to carry it, and all
a person’s bad luck, away. There’s the
more recent Kwanzaa, of course, the week-long celebration that has its roots in
the black nationalist movement of the 1960s, and was established Dr. Maulana Karenga as a means of helping
African Americans reconnect with their African cultural and historical
heritage. In fact, I read somewhere (but
was not able to confirm) that there are something like 27 different holidays and holy days during this “holiday season.”
But
unquestionably the one that started it all was the solstice – as Lucy said, the
day on which the balance between night and day tips as far toward night as it
can. Thousands and thousands of years
ago our ancestors were building astonishing stone structures that – whatever
else they were built for – were (and still are) amazingly accurate markers of
the winter and summer solstices.
Stonehenge on the Salisbury Plain in England is probably the most famous
one, but there are thousands more around the world. And each one of these stone circles was built
by a people saying, “I think I can, I think I can” over and over, and over
again. Just kidding.
Each one of these stone circles was built by
people who were deeply connected to the earth, the sea, the sky; people who
were deeply connected to nature in all of her many forms. Neil deGrasse Tyson, today, may inspire many
of us when he points out that the iron in our blood is the exact same element
as the iron in a comet; and Carl Sagan, in the 80s, may have poetically taught
us that “we are made of star stuff;” but the people who built Stonehenge and
the other remarkable stone monuments didn’t need to be told these things – they
lived that truth. They did not see themselves apart from the
natural world but, rather, as a part
of the natural world.
Here in the 21st century we have
become so distanced from the world we live in.
Most of us spend much more time with concrete beneath our feet than we
do grass and dirt. For many, if not most
of us, the changing of the seasons means little more than the changing of our
thermostats and how long we leave our lights on. But not them.
Not our ancestors’ ancestors.
They didn’t just live in the world; they knew that the world lived in
them.
So I’m going to throw out a new idea here – new
to me, at least. It came to me as I was
writing this sermon. It came to me as
Lucy and Cypress shared their homilies with me and I reflected on these themes
of light and dark and expectation.
Here’s the new idea: we are the ones who fear the descent
into darkness and await the return of the sun.
We, our ultra-civilized selves, and not our so-called primitive ancestors.
They did not
fear the shortening days and lengthening nights. They did not worry about whether the sun
would ever come back. At least that’s
what I suddenly realized this week: I
don’t think that they did. And that’s
because for them the cycles and seasons weren’t something out there; the cycles and seasons were part of them. Integral to them. Part and parcel of them, and they of it. There was no doubt that the sun would
return. They expected it. Their bones told them it would, as did the
world in which, with which, and as part
of which they lived. So with all due
respect to Cypress, and the notion I held strongly until just this week, I do
not believe that all of these light festivals were meant to “call forth the
light.”
So why
all the celebrations? Well … don’t you make a big deal of it when you see
an old friend who’s been away for a while?
And what better way to welcome back the sun than with fire? The more fire the better.
Don’t get me wrong. I love Christmas – both the Christian and
secular Christmases. And I value
Hanukkah, and Kwanzaa. But when I really
want to get in touch with “the reason for the season” I go back to the roots –
the roots kept alive by modern Wiccans, and Druids, and Asatrus, and other neo-
and paleo-pagan groups. Because we are made of star stuff, and these
seasons and cycles live within us as we live within them no matter how far
removed we have tried to make ourselves.
We cannot live over, and above, or outside of the natural world because
we are the natural world, as are the
rocks and the trees … and the sun and the moon.
We do not need to fear the lack of light –
out there or in here – nor do we need to be anxious for its return. We need to be reminded to trust it … to trust
Life … our life … Life itself. My prayer for each of us is that in the days
to come we find such a reminder, and that we find ourselves because of it able
to live with more confidence and more courage.
Pax tecum,
RevWik
